well instead of going to Montreal for the jazz festival again, i’m going to california for a week! sweet, right?! except i was really excited about going to Montreal again…. it would probably bring up some repressed memories though… so CA it is!
also, part of my graduation present from my parents is to spend 2 weeks in europe! wherever i choose! we were going to go this august, but since the olympics are in London, it would be crazy to go this summer… so hopefully next summer will work out nicely!!
well i now have my Bachelor of Science in Chemistry and Biology! Woohoo! now i just have to find a solid job that i’ll enjoy…… i’ve been searching for a bit but i’m just so emotionally exhausted from the move and saying goodbye to all my housemates and friends. thank goodness i have my best friend and boyfriend at home with me. i don’t know what i’d do without them. i’ve been to the beach a few times but my skin is not getting tan at allllllllllll awful! so i’m going to take pictures on the beach with ashley when i get tan and with my hair then i’m going to cut it all off and take after pictures!!!!!!!!
yesterday i had a fever or 101.4. when i went to clean my thermometer today, it broke. nobody is home to take care of me and ben is in class until 5. i’m so hungry and i can hardly get out of bed. i even skipped a final this morning because i felt so sick. idk what to do. i’ve skipped 3 classes and a lab. i’m fucked. i’m only supposed to have 10 days until graduation, so i hope i can finish all my work before then. whyyyyyy did i have to go and get sick the week before finals?!?!? i have another exam tomorrow morning at 8am. tonight is supposed to be the small group dinner at madison grill and tomorrow night is the chemistry department’s dinner. i have to miss all these last events. so sad.
14 SCHOOL DAYS LEFT OF MY UNDERGRADUATE CAREER!!!!!!!!!!
so hell week is nearly over.. except for my last paper due today… which i’ve yet to complete… and another exam that starts tomorrow… and 3 more papers due next week…. and the lab final in physical chemistry next friday…
but i got a 100% and an 89.33% on the two exams i’ve taken this week! holla
so overwhelmed. next week, i’ll have 3 papers due and the following week i’ll have 3 exams and 2 papers due, but after those assignments, i’ll only have a couple of assignments and then finals! then graduation. then real life.
i feel like such a fucking failure. i have no definite plans for after graduation and i don’t even know what i have a passion for, other than science. i don’t have the highest gpa cause i’m a double major in chemistry and biology so i’m worried about not getting into any graduate school programs. i haven’t applied anywhere, not to graduate schools nor jobs. why why why why why :(
